First of all I want to say... I'm baaack! As if it has been a month since my last blog post. Work has pretty much been my main focus for the past few weeks and on my days off I have been spending time with family and S. Today has been the first day where I have been able to make the time to chill out and blog, I have however been scribbling down blog notes when it's been a little quiet at work (that's the beauty of working in a office!)

So I guess I should catch you all up!

My job in the travel industry is going fantastic, I have really found my feet and feel like it's a place I could really settle down in. The money isn't too bad plus I'm on commission, so the harder I work the more money I'll make. A rewarding job, at last.

S and me are in a good place right now, starting to save for our holiday (Silverstone) in July as well as being able to do up our flat ☺🏡. We spent the whole of last weekend (bank holiday) decorating our bedroom and yesterday we eventually got our bed (which we waited 5 weeks for by the way..) fuck you Littlewoods! I tell you what though it must have been the worlds most anticipated bed 😂. We were stupidly happy when it arrived, I mean c'mon we had been sleeping on a mattress on the floor for 2 months!

Anyway there are no longer any stresses about money and S and me are able to enjoy life again, we are even talking about getting a joint membership at our local sports centre next week. That'll open up a load of stuff for us to do together and keeping fit along the way 💑💪.

My mental health, well it has definitely improved... I am no longer a paranoid-crazy-insecure-mess (fs.) But then Friday night happened. I have no idea where it came from, but a build up of anxiety fast turned into a full blown panic attack/breakdown. I ended up screaming, crying and eventually kicking the crap out of my bathroom unit. I hadn't took my tablets for about 3 days and I think the effects of not doing so ended up with me crying a river... literally. My eyes yesterday morning were so puffy from crying I could barely open them in the morning, why do I do it to myself?

I have started taking my tablets again, rookie mistake... like last year! I felt as though I didn't need them anymore, when in reality I sooo clearly do.

I promise to not leave it as long as this till my next post, I have lots to share with you all!

Take care, enjoy your week ✌