Yep you read that right, I got the job! Ahhhh *shakes booty*. I am now working in the travel and tourism industry and finally back in the working world.

It's been 3 months since I quit my last job and with only one wage coming in, money was becoming a struggle. S has been working 7 days a week for the last 4 weeks just to make sure we have enough money for rent and other living costs, and me? Well I have been the typical housewife! Never did I think that phrase would come out of  my mouth 😂. Cooking, cleaning, laundry and so on is a role I never thought I'd take on. My god, no way - ask my Mam. The number of times she would come into my room and pass a sarcastic remark about the collection of glasses, cups or bowls... well I lost count of (sorry Mam🙈).

These past few month I feel like I have finally grown up, I've learned about the value of money and I've gotten to know myself a lot better too. Initially, I did feel guilty about quitting my job due to my mental health and how it was going to affect S and me financially, but if you haven't got your health what have you got? I've needed this time off for me. To sort myself out and to figure out where the hell I wanted to go, career wise.

I was so lost last year, I ended up being on the sick twice from my job. Looking back I think the job played a part in the anxiety. I loved my job until maybe the last 4-5 months. I dreaded the night before work, I wouldn't sleep properly, I cried every other day. It was so exhausting.

In the end I was sad for most of the time and eventually my work mates picked up on it. Some sympathized, some expressed that they feel the same sometimes and then there was one person in particular, the big B. Not many people liked big B at work, three words spring to mind. Patronising-sexist-arsehole. It wasn't always bad - I have made a couple of life long friends there, I'm not quite sure what happened just everyone's mood changed and team morale was pretty shit.

Anyways, that's in the past now, finally! I now have a fresh new start coming up in the next few days and I can't wait. If there is one thing I love about myself, it's my determination. Goodbye Fashion, Hello TT! (I'm still a little excited.. can you tell?)

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